Getting the Feel of Things!!!

This is sooooo new for me...I had my blog set-up for about 2 weeks now and to be quite honest I was a little afraid to put my thoughts into words.


Well here goes - I have reached it y'all 30 years old (last year), lol. I am now 31, I guess I should tell you that I had it all planned out...to be married by the time I was 3o. I don't know where I got this BS idea that I had to be married by the age of 30. Ooooh now I know...when all my friends started getting married. (dumb me) I don't think that I am actually ready to get married, but just the mere fact that I don't have any prospects is a little disheartening. You probably think I don't have a boyfriend, but I do. And believe me I didn't make a mistake when I said "boy". I've been in this BS relationship for 6 months...don't ask me why. I won't go into detail with this mess, but just know that I'm not happy.

Moving on....

I have never cared about what anyone else was doing, but now for some reason I really care. I have a daughter who is the light of my life, but I feel sooo alone. I know that it is obvious...I just don't know what to do. I don't want to be in this relationship anymore, but for fear of being alone...I tolerate it. I would have never done this years ago. What is wrong with me? Now don't get me wrong I still walk around with a smile on my face and looking fly as ever, but I am so down inside. What make it sooo bad is that I am now starting to be more critical of myself....I mean I'm starting to look at myself and starting to think that something is wrong with me...physically that is. I have never thought like this either. I've always been a very cute girl with a very nice shape...and not only that I'm actually a very nice person. I don't know what's wrong...I guess it's just not my time.

I think I'm done...believe it or not I think I might feel a little better....I think:)

Just give me time with this...I'll get better!!!!!